hey guys~ yes once again I’ve successfully managed to make a world record in the longest gap in between blog posts ever in the history of 18 year olds haha. Life is wonderful ain’t it? So how have you Earthlings been doing? I hope that this post finds you well and healthy~!
Well mind the title to this one really haha. I can’t find anything on my mind worth posting ever since my 2 week holiday started and I’ve been banned to do any work until New Year’s passed. So I thought why not share a few thoughts about Christmas?
Christmas. A day celebrating the birth of Jesus Christ for the Christians where families and friends gather around, have fun, be merry and reminisce the past year’s experience together as they enter a new year. Truth to be told, I’m not too fond of Christmas ever since I was a child. I don’t mind it as a celebration mind you but my dislike is more influenced by the memories it brings ever year.
You see, as a child growing up, my parents’ didn’t have much to give. So while other families were out for Christmas doing things together, I and my older sister would be home usually alone since our parents had to work to bring in our daily bread. That wasn’t what I mind about Christmas. Back then, we didn’t have much friends either. In fact our peers hated us so we never got invited to a Party or being offered a present at Christmas. Haha but as pathetic as that may sound, we didn’t mind it too much then. We were kids and we had each other. Who needs the world right?
Decorations, Christmas songs, couples and families walking past you with smiles on their faces. As years past and I grew, my views on things changed. Maybe… you do need the world at some point in your life. Maybe… you can’t survive alone. When one part of my world started to drift apart, it was a wake up call for me to start searching what I want. My sister, as shy or as reserved she may be… has started making friends. True friends, you know the types you call up 4 AM in the morning when you need someone to listen to? In all my 18 years, all I knew what to do was look out for her. She was all I have personally I thought. But now that she doesn’t need to depend on me anymore, what should I do? Can I too find a place where I can depend on someone?
Ever Christmas I am reminded of this fact. It is needed I feel, even though I don’t like it. But hey, what doesn’t kill you make you stronger right? haha I’m not sure why I’m posting this anymore. A chain of events leading up to today I guess made me kind of sad so I though letting it out somewhere, especially where people don’t visit is good. But there’s too much for me to say. Maybe it’s because it’s Christmas haha.
Looking back at my previous entry, this blog seems like a place I com and dump my frustrations upon LAWL. but it’s okay. Since I’m me, I’ll bounce back up fast :”3 As I always do haha. Until the next time, See you~!