MISTAKE
lawl no, i’m not ranting X”D i’m listening to the song MISTAKE : THE BAND HAS NO NAME right about now. anyways…
YO! (≥ ω ・ )v =♥
LAWL hisashiburi da ne~ I practically left this place unattended. Though I’m not sure if anyone is constantly checking in if I’m still alive or not, I apologize lawl~ I’ll try and post stuff more often. Lately I’ve been really caught up with my homework and studying. Not to mention I’ve been reading this book called The 7 Habits of Highly Effective Teens by Sean Covey and it really gave some really good tips for me to exercise and be more proactive. So I’ve been applying alot of the tips given to my daily life. Bit by bit but I’m managing.
I just finished re-watching the second season of Honey and Clover and I must say everytime I watch that series, it always manages to make me think about alot of things in my life. About my family, my passion, and a whole lot of things. Like “what would you do for the one you love?” “Do we help the people around me the way that they have helped us?” “Are people who put up a strong front really that strong on the inside?” and so on~
I was having a discussion the other day with my sister on how people treat both her and me drastically different despite the fact that we’re both girls. Like how they are gentler with her and they’re harsher with me. Not that they’re mean to me, no don’t get me wrong. But how do I put it… they treat me like one of their guy friends if you get what I mean? I mean I guess I’m partly to blame since I’ve used to taking on the more strong character and masculine role between our group and I guess most people forget that… I’m still a person in need of some gentle touch from time to time.
I hope someday, they will notice that beyond my smiles I suffer too. That beyond my “I’m ok”s, it’s a “please help” and I most of all hope that they will return my feelings the way I have for them. I love people. They make me happy and they are all that I live for, to ensure that they’ll beget the happiness that they have given so much to me just by being around them. But I guess sometimes it leaves you a bit lonely don’t it? Because watching them from behind gives you the most happiness but also that loneliness that leaves you wondering sometimes that “is this worth it?”. Well I’m most certain to say that it is. And I believe someday… that one day… someone will turn behind their shoulders and extend their hand to me with a warm smile… and then… surely, my feelings will be returned.
Onee-chan said,
July 19, 2008 at 11:58 am
Love without expecting anything in return. Because suffering comes when you expect something in return for the love you give.
*hugs ryu ryu-chan*
something fancy said,
August 1, 2008 at 9:06 pm
“Are people who put up a strong front really that strong on the inside?”
It is a truism in psychology that people obsess over what they lack most. A person who is a stickler for honesty probably has a natural talent for lying, and a woman who prizes her beauty above all else is usually the one who spends hours and thousands on her pretty face, as the man who hasn’t much money boasts of richest he never had. It’s human nature. But I believe with a steely determination, one could be anything one wishes to be. So it all ends with what we really want, but we hardly ever know what we want.
And I also think that there will always be someone, somewhere who feels strongly to being taken for granted. Just like how sadness, happiness, humiliation, and self-satisfaction among all other feelings are experienced on a daily basis by numerous people possibly living in your neighborhood. While it may seem like my opinions are working against you, what I actually mean to say is it’s okay to feel this way. You don’t need a good reason to feel like crap. After all, dying is easy – living not so. Sometimes we just get tired. And when we do, there’s always a bench waiting around the corner if you care to take a breather – and if you’re lucky, someone might already be there with drinks and no one to share it with.
Kussu-Chan said,
August 24, 2008 at 9:16 am
Ohhh, poor Ryu-san Dx I’m so sorry about that. I know how you feel. With me, a lot of times, I’ll insult and act all self-confident while I’m really really sensitive, and get offended and hurt as easily as I bruise (and I bruise like a banana). I think a lot of people around our age feel the same, because we’re all sort of still maturing, and aren’t completely ourselves sometimes. >ww<
<3333 love, Kussu-Chan