homg it’s been ages
lawl how long has it been since I used my God forsaken Journal? LAWL. X”D;;;; anyways hi guys TwT
I apologize for the sudden disappearence. Currently my life has proved itself to be as busy as ever :”D It’s practically as busy as chasing pigs everday lawl. What with Hari Raya coming and the hamper orders being far from finished, not to mention preparations for AFA2009… it’s been somewhat fulfilling to say the least haha.
I departed from the busy streets if Kuala Lumpur, which has been my life for the past few months since April and return to the serene air of Ipoh, where I grew up in all my life. 
I came back here for the hamper season since this could be the last time I’d be doing hampers here in Ipoh, I have to pass on the techniques to my younger siblings as it’ll be their turn next year to do them all. They’re holding on pretty well I must say.
But coming back to Ipoh, makes me realize how much I loved this place. The corn fields with the blue mountains behind it as an accompanying backdrop, the small shops filled with a thousand and one antiques in Old Town, the fresh air I took for granted (until I moved to KL that is haha). Coming back here has liberated me as much as it has stressed me out haha X”DDD but I’ll keep that another day.
The next time I post I’ll be sure to post up pictures :”3 Some things are just worth sharing. Until next time <3
MISTAKE
lawl no, i’m not ranting X”D i’m listening to the song MISTAKE : THE BAND HAS NO NAME right about now. anyways…
YO! (≥ ω ・ )v =♥
LAWL hisashiburi da ne~ I practically left this place unattended. Though I’m not sure if anyone is constantly checking in if I’m still alive or not, I apologize lawl~ I’ll try and post stuff more often. Lately I’ve been really caught up with my homework and studying. Not to mention I’ve been reading this book called The 7 Habits of Highly Effective Teens by Sean Covey and it really gave some really good tips for me to exercise and be more proactive. So I’ve been applying alot of the tips given to my daily life. Bit by bit but I’m managing.
I just finished re-watching the second season of Honey and Clover and I must say everytime I watch that series, it always manages to make me think about alot of things in my life. About my family, my passion, and a whole lot of things. Like “what would you do for the one you love?” “Do we help the people around me the way that they have helped us?” “Are people who put up a strong front really that strong on the inside?” and so on~
I was having a discussion the other day with my sister on how people treat both her and me drastically different despite the fact that we’re both girls. Like how they are gentler with her and they’re harsher with me. Not that they’re mean to me, no don’t get me wrong. But how do I put it… they treat me like one of their guy friends if you get what I mean? I mean I guess I’m partly to blame since I’ve used to taking on the more strong character and masculine role between our group and I guess most people forget that… I’m still a person in need of some gentle touch from time to time.
I hope someday, they will notice that beyond my smiles I suffer too. That beyond my “I’m ok”s, it’s a “please help” and I most of all hope that they will return my feelings the way I have for them. I love people. They make me happy and they are all that I live for, to ensure that they’ll beget the happiness that they have given so much to me just by being around them. But I guess sometimes it leaves you a bit lonely don’t it? Because watching them from behind gives you the most happiness but also that loneliness that leaves you wondering sometimes that “is this worth it?”. Well I’m most certain to say that it is. And I believe someday… that one day… someone will turn behind their shoulders and extend their hand to me with a warm smile… and then… surely, my feelings will be returned.
